Ill At Ease with My Lack of Concern

I'm having one of those days, weeks - maybe even lives - where I feel like I am out of the loop. I feel like the world has failed to let me in on some very important facts. I tend to lean towards the side of oblivious despite my distinct and strenuous efforts to figure out what is going on. Lately this may have something to do with the fact that I'm about to go into my senior year as an art and journalism major in an economy that is sucking with two interests that will make certain the fact that I will be poor for the rest of my life. It's also not really the time to go into journalism, as newspapers are struggling to find a way to survive in the internet era. Anyway, I'm not that worried about it, which worries me, because it gives me that feeling like I'm missing something. I guess I just figure that I'll find a way to do what I want eventually.